So I am sorry to anybody out there that was keeping up with my blog. I got a little busy and just did not take the time to write. A LOT has gone on since March 21st. A week ago on the 11th I turned 19. WEIRD! I suppose growing up I looked forward to being 18 so much that I guess I really did not think about past 18 a whole lot. lol.. I am blessed to have lived 19 years on this earth and I am praying to be blessed with many more. I was seeing 19 as a pointless age. Because I considered 18 to be such a pivotal age (which it was) and I think that 20 is also a very pivotal age because I will no longer be a teenager. But I never really thought about being 19 it seems kinda stuck in the middle with no purpose.. But ah ha! Jesus said no no no Sara it is your last year of being a teenager and that in its self is a big thing.. I literally am blown away and just freaked out that it is my last year of being a teenager.. My teenage years flew by and are coming to an end. I have a lot of things that went on in my teenage years. To say I regret some things that happened would not be the right way to describe it. I simply had A LOT of learning experiences and opportunities to gain wisdom from. But looking back at all of it Jesus has had a hand in every situation and he saved me from a lot of crap that I should have had to take on.. Thank GOD for his grace and mercy. He is SUCH a unfathomable God. :D I love that my mistakes are covered by his blood.
Anyways I titled this post as Song of Solomon because God is romancing me.. He told me the other day that he wants me to read SOS everyday and just let him teach me what real love is. So far its only been two days and I am just wowed.. Song of Solomon is such an intense chapter and there really is no way for me to understand it when I think with a worldly mindset. Because Gods love is not of this world. :) Trying to wrap my mind around the thought of Jesus being my lover, my friend, my father, my brother, and so much more is just insanely hard. Only with Him giving me his mind am I able to even sort of understand it. My human mind just does not get it. But he is teaching me more everyday. :)
I really love Song of Solomon 5:1-16.
Lover
1.I have come into my garden, my sister, my bride; I have gathered my myrrh with my spice. I have eaten my honeycomb and my honey; I have drunk my wine and my milk.
Friends
Eat, O friends, and drink; drink your fill, O lovers.
Beloved
2. I slept but my heart was awake. Listen! My lover is knocking: "Open to me, my sister, my darling, my dove, my flawless one. My head is drenched with dew, my hair with the dampness of the night."
3. I have taken off my robe. must I put it on again? I have washed my feet. Must I soil them again?
4. My lover thrust his hand through the latch-opening; my heart began to pound for him.
5 I arose to open for my lover, and my hands dripped with myrrh, my fingers with flowing myrrh, on the handles of the lock.
6. I opened for my lover but my lover had left, he was gone, My heart sank at his departure. I looked for him but did not find him.
7. The watchmen found me as they made their rounds in the city, They beat me, they bruised me; they took away my cloak, those watchmen of the walls!
8. O daughters of Jerusalem, I charge you if you find my lover, what will you tell him? tell him I am faint with love.
Friends
9. How is your beloved better than others, most beautiful of women? How is your beloved better that others, that you charge us so?
Beloved
10. My lover is radiant and ruddy, outstanding among ten thousand.
11. His head is purest gold; his hair is wavy and black as a raven.
12. His eyes are like doves by the water streams, washed in milk, mounted like jewels.
13. His cheeks are like beds of spice yielding perfume.
his lips are like lilies dripping with myrrh.
14. His arms are rods of gold set with chrysolite. His body is like polished ivory decorated with sapphires.
15. His legs are pillars of marble set on bases of pure gold. His appearance is like Lebanon, choice as its cedars.
16. His mouth is sweetness itself; he is altogether lovely. This is my lover, my friend, O daughters of Jerusalem.
<3 Yeah WOW I just love that.. so intense.. so intimate.. Such a love...
.. Sara Cannon :) Gods lover. <3
